Part 4

I would like for this to be the end of The Brain saga, but I don't think it is.  This is Part 4 or so.

Over the past month, I have been trying to balance going out and work; work is winning.  Of course I have also gone out, but I have not been found by what I am looking for (yet).

I have run into The Brain a lot; by "run in" I mean he has found out where I would be and appeared.  He has also asked me out to dinner; no I did not go (and what a jerk; he has a girlfriend, remember)?  I don't hate him, I would just rather surf the net, wash my hair, paint my nails, clean the house, etc. than talk to him.  Many of you are thinking, go for the free meal.  No thanks, vacuuming and washing dishes are more fun and a better use of my time than listening to him preach about whatever he thinks is important.

I have said it before and I will say it again...I don't want to marry him, but I also don't want him to find his spouse before I find mine.  Well, I am happy to say, I know for a fact he is not very interested in his current girlfriend (a mutual friend let this cat out of the bag).  Just knowing that shackles are being put on his wrists and ankles makes me smile; welcome to cell block H.

I know good things are coming my way.  I can feel it.  It feels like new guys with real potential!  LOL.

Control

Let's call this Part 3 of The Brain tale (what was wrong with him and us...I have to be specific because he is still hanging around).

The Brain was controlling and I am not the girl who is controlled.  He wanted a girlfriend who would blindly follow him around, never ask questions when things sounded peculiar, and agree with everything he said.  For those of you who actually know me, how well do you think I fit this profile?  Hah!!!  I am the polar opposite.  He thought he could change me; that worked well...no, not at all actually.  I schooled him.  He wanted me to be weak and needy.  How can anyone want to spend their time with that?  How bad is his self esteem if he wants a girl who can't do anything for herself and makes him the center of her universe?

I am much happier without him; that really says something.  He was supposed to add, not subtract happiness from my life.  I see him about once a month, though it has been more recently (why he is orchestrating this, I don't know).  I should probably feel a little bad because he sees me one hundred times happier without him; well, that and because I know he is still in love with me.  I don't feel bad for him; this is part of growing up (which he hasn't fully done yet) and a lesson he needs to learn (not that I actually believe he will learn).

His current girl will serve as a patch.  Maybe they will end up together forever (not happily ever after...note the difference) because he wants someone he can control and she is easily controlled.  Just like you, I will tune into this soap...

Pretty

Ever notice how ugly girls all have their friends commenting on their facebook pictures about how pretty they are?  Hah.

Friends Like These

With friends like these...three of The Brain's friends have asked me out since we broke up; I believe another one is about to.  One waited two days, one waited one week, one waited one and a half months, and the other has been sending out feelers for the last month or so.  The first guy, I turned down, but he has asked me out another three times since then.  The second guy, I played dumb.  The third guy, I turned into a group event...so, no it was not a date.  There is nothing wrong with these guys, I just don't find any of them attractive.  I have not had a problem dating guys I am not attracted to before, but that's what got me into this mess in the first place (dating someone because they meet all the criteria I am looking for).  I need to add attraction to the list.  For those who wonder about the fourth guy, I will go out with him if he asks.  I am not doing it to be unkind.  I could be interested in this fourth guy.  Okay, it doesn't hurt that it would kill The Brain if he found out...

The Brain's friends going after his ex girlfriend is incredulous!  That tells me either 1) his friends are disloyal jerks or 2) he is not that great of a friend and they can't wait to run him down.  My girls would never date a guy I used to date because they actually want to keep me as a friend (and live).  And I would never date a guy my girls have dated.

Strange

This is strange.  I am hearing more about and from The Brain now that he is in a new relationship.  He wants to hang out in a group setting all the time.  I wouldn't consider us the best of friends, so what is with this wanting to see me stuff?  Strange.  I have no issue with him having a new girl, but something tells me he wants me to have a problem with it.  His friends should really advise him not to see me.  His friends have told my friends that he is not over me.  So he likes torture?

As for the girlfriend.  Maybe it will work out, maybe it won't.  If you ask me, something smells like rebound...

Right

I am right and I have proof.  I always thought there was something off with The Brain while we were together.  He seemed like a philanderer.  Well, he is.  He cheated on his most recent girlfriend with me (I believe they are still together because she doesn't know).  No I will not tell her, it is not my place and I don't need the chaos that would ensue.

I don't know the new girl, but I feel for her.  The whole time he was telling her lies and making it seem like he was absolutely interested in her, he was calling me.  He will get his in the end, yes I believe in karma.

And remember how I talked about the axe falling in my last post?  Well, I do believe he sensed it because for the last few weeks (more like months) he was trying to get me back, he must have known the outlook was stormy.  He tried pretty hard in the standard passive San Francisco way.  He will not get me back, especially with this new information.

How does settling feel?  I don't know, someone should ask The Brain.

That Weird Feeling Again

No future for The Brain.  Yes, I have seen him since the last time I posted.  I have decided, it would take a lot for me to change my mind.  I truly believe guys have the ability to sense the axe falling.