Wednesday, April 28, 2010

That Weird Feeling

Remember the weird feeling I spoke of in this post?  Well, I think The Brain has felt it.  Over the past few weeks I have been thinking about The Brain and if it could have ever worked.  I think the answer is NO.  Maybe we are meant to be friends or acquaintances?

I truly don't know what my opinion is of him.  I know he still likes me.  I know I haven't heard the last from him.  I know because he has been calling me and doing attention grabbing things on Facebook.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010


The Brain tried to get a jealous reaction out of me on at least three different occasions that I can remember.  Why?  Because he is insecure and wanted to be validated and assured.  I did not give him the reaction he was looking for.  If you genuinely like someone, why in the world would you try to make them feel bad, nervous, or annoyed?

Has getting a girl jealous ever worked for a guy?  The girls I know get mad and leave the picture.  If that is considered "working," then it works.

Insecurity is an interesting topic.  I have either a) not met many insecure guys or b) met a lot of insecure guys who are great at hiding it.  If a guy doesn't think he is good, hot, rich, smart...enough for me, why should I want to continue dating him?  He knows himself better than I do.  I'll believe him...he's not good enough for me.

I am confident.  I do not think I am the prettiest, smartest, skinniest, nicest, funniest...girl in San Francisco, but I think I can hold my own.  Yes, one of the reasons guys like me is because I am confident.  However, this is also something they can't handle?  Preposterous!

A friend once told me something like, if a guy tries/makes you feel insecure, let your insecurity be your guide...I think she left out "to get the f--k out."

Monday, April 26, 2010

The Brain

How many parts are there to The Brain tale?  I don't know.  It's not even entirely over even though we are broken up.

The Brain was a great con artist and great on, successful, pursued me, funny, easy to be with, etc.  Well, after 15+ dates, I learned that I was totally, utterly wrong.  Yes, he is still great on paper, but his personality is not what I had thought it would be.  He could win an award.  High strung comes to mind as an incredibly accurate descriptor.  As does critical and negative.  For those of you who know me, yes, I can be critical, but I am certainly not negative.  I do not appreciate negativity and try to stay as far away from it as possible.

I continued dating him because he was great on paper.  Also, he is in love with me, and wants to marry me.  Those are incredibly asinine reasons to date a guy and I will be the first to admit it.

I do not regret dating him, but I do feel like I have been tricked...I don't like it.

The Story

I was MIA for a while.  What happened?

I did not go out with Felix for Valentine's Day.  Strange situation really...last time I spoke with him (late February) he said something about wanting to get together.  I haven't heard from him and I haven't contacted him.  He is a shady character.  I remember he fibbed about missing a party sometime in the Fall and totally forgot that he had lied about why he bailed.  He hasn't been a candidate for a while now, but I don't think that is the last I have heard from him.  It's too bad...he is incredible on paper!

I hadn't seen Odie since the last time I mentioned him in the blog; that means it was before early February.  Well, he has made a few appearances in the last two weeks.  I am not sure if or what his game plan is.  This has been going on for as long as I have known him...two years?  My patience has been gone and well, he is a friend...dreaded word, right guys?

Oblivious Guy
Oh yeah, him.  I got an email from him a couple of weeks ago.  Should he be institutionalized? 

The Brain
This is a much longer story.  I went out with him for Valentine's Day and ended up dating him, as in he was my boyfriend.  Some of it was good, some of it was bad.  We are not together anymore, but run into each other at least once a month.  I will get into more detail in the next couple of posts...there is just so much to tell.

Come on universe, please send me new guys...preferably ones I could see forever with.

Sunday, April 25, 2010


Yes, I have been very behind on over two months behind.  I will start working on this over the next few nights...