A Few Dates

Over the last few months, I've gone on a few dates.

1. Guy who bragged about how his dog is a "chick magnet"
2. Guy who had really long fingernails I couldn't help but stare at
3. Guy who may have been more into men than women
4. Guy who had interesting things to talk about

I found myself thinking, if guy number one didn't brag about his dog being a "chick magnet," would have I wanted to see him again? No. If guy number two had shorter fingernails, would I have wanted to see him again? No. If I had thought guy number three was more into women, would I have wanted to see him again? No. So by thinking pf someone as the "long fingernail guy" or whatever else, I'm not ruling them out because of long nails, dogs, et al, no, it's because I didn't like him and that was just another straw to add to the camel's back. I'm sure men think like this about women too.

Guy number four is the only one I would have agreed to see again. We didn't have a spark (not that I had a spark with the others), but he was interesting and we talked about interesting things (vs the let's talk about our jobs for two hours conversations).  He has asked me out since and our calendars haven't lined up.  I don't know if I should see him again though because I don't think it'd be fair to him because I feel no spark.

Guys two to four were all nice guys, we just aren't good matches.  Guy number one was the only questionable one.  3 out of 4 being nice is quite good.

It's A New Year

I haven't done much here because I've been working and traveling almost nonstop. I've talked to a few guys here and there. I've also stopped talking to a few guys here and there when they say things like, "What u du for job?" Dating and relationships have been placed on the back burner.

It's a new year and there will be some changes here. I used to let all comments get published. Going forward, this will not happen. Without getting into great detail, I will say I've received several threats to my safety.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is this Thursday and I'm sure we all have things we should be grateful for; we just need to realize what.

So, even if nothing comes of it, I'm grateful for the guy I run into coming into my life.  I thought I was very over Ex Guy, but he was still able to annoy me by contacting me.  Although my annoyance was at a very low level, it was still present.  I think that's a sure sign that I wasn't as over Ex Guy as I thought I was.

After a variety of things like a long vacation and meeting two guys I have chemistry with (including the guy I ran into), I can honestly say I'm 100% over the Ex Guy. Going on a few dates with this one showed me just how over the Ex Guy I am.  The Ex Guy could show up on my doorstep, and I'd just close the door without any positive or negative feeling.  He's been made completely irrelevant.  And, that took way too long.  Had I met some guys I found interesting sooner, I think I would have been 100% done with the Ex Guy sooner.

I've heard that people come into your life at a specific time, for a specific reason.  I believe it.

Yes, I Went On That Date

Yes, I went on that date.  The date that I thought was two friends having dinner, not two people on a date.  I was wrong.  It was a date.  He referred to it as a date and was more dressed up than I had ever seen him.

It was a lot of fun.  He seemed much happier than the first time I met up with him.  Seeing him happier made him more attractive.  He's cute.  We have chemistry.  We had a lot to talk about.  We laughed a lot.  I left the date thinking, he's someone I want to see again.

Then, I thought about it some more.  We had a great time, but I'm not sure he's over his ex.  I don't want to be a rebound.  Sure, he could be truly over it, and I think if that were the case, he'd show me that.  Maybe he thinks he's over it, but really isn't?

He asked me out again, and I was busy.  He also asked me to meet him on an out of state business trip.  I feel like it's too soon for that.  Is he trying to 1) find someone to sleep with and thinks an overnight trip will do the trick, 2) move things along quickly (possibly to fill a void), or 3) it'd really be innocent.  Or, maybe someone else I haven't considered?

How am I going to handle it if/when he asks me out again?  It'll probably be a long time from now because of the upcoming holidays.  We are both going to be out of town a lot.  Time is good.  Time heals all wounds, right?

I'm not ruling him out, but I'm also not holding my breath.  If we're meant to go out again, it'll happen, especially based on our history of running into each other.

Friend Dinner

This guy texted me over the weekend and we're going out this week.  I like that he seems like a happy positive guy even though he's had a rough year and got out of a serious relationship.  I'm just going assume we are two friends having dinner, not two people on a date.  And a different guy from work asked me out today.

Seven Texts

This guy on a dating app asked me for my number.  I gave it to him.  He's sent me seven texts without me replying to one.  I've been busy and forgot.  Well, I wasn't going to respond to his "good morning" text because I find those to be a waste of time, especially since we haven't even met in person.  Then, I was at work for eight hours.  Then, I met up with some friends.  Then, he started emailing me on the dating app.

SEVEN texts and new emails on the dating app.  If a girl did this to a guy, people would call her "psycho."  And it's fine when a guy does this to a girl?

Don't Really Care Much

The guy I ran into at the airport, I ran into him again, at the airport!  We chatted for a few minutes.  He wanted to do something this weekend, but I already have plans.  He kept telling me to text him, but I have nothing to say.  And, I already have plans.  And, I see him as a work friend.  And, if he really wants to make plans, he can text me.  And, if he doesn't really want to make plans, no need to text me.  I don't really care much.

That's Not What I Want

I went out with a guy I met online a few weeks ago.  He seemed like a nice guy in person.  I tried very hard to get past his height.  He's much shorter than 5 feet and I'm shorter than the US women's average of 5'5".  We had a nice dinner and he asked me out again.  I agreed because I really wanted to give him a chance and get past his lack of height.

Days leading to the second date, he was texting me.  Then the texts took a turn, for example, "Let's go back to your place after dinner so we can have some private time."  I told him no and cancelled the second date.  To me, he's a guy who's just trying to get laid, and that's not what I want.  I do like that he was upfront about it because it saved me a lot of time.

A Month Or So Ago

Let's go back a month or so ago.  The guy I ran into at the airport texted me, a lot.  He's asked me out to lunch and we went.  He's a nice guy who I see at work every now and then.  I don't consider himself to be a long term prospect because he just got out of a serious relationship, has some young kids/baby mama drama from a different woman, and I'm not sure I find him attractive.  I don't find him unattractive, but that's not a great vote of confidence.  If anything, he'll be a work friend?  I wouldn't mind being his work friend, but from that lunch we had together, it seems like he's interested in more.

Back From Vacation

I'm back from my long vacation where I visited four countries in Europe.  I'm glad I had the opportunity to see new places, spend time with friends, and clear my mind. 

I told myself I'd be more open to dating and meeting new people after this trip.  Well, as soon as I landed in the US, one guy from the past (we never moved passed talking) sent me a message, and another I've worked with in the past asked for my number (we ran into each other at the airport).  I don't think either of them will go anywhere, but I will say that I will try to enjoy the process of spending time with them (should it get to that point) rather than dreading the whole dating thing.

Long Vacation

I still hear from the Ex Guy and I'm still not really talking about it because there's nothing to talk about.  I've asked myself a new question though.  Even if he did fix whatever needed to be fixed, would I even want him?  I don't think so.  The good times were so good and the bad times were so bad.

My focus has not been on dating for the last month.  I've been working on trip planning.  I am going on a long vacation this summer.  We'll visit three countries (at minimum) in Europe.  I think I usually take a vacation from dating over the summer?  It sorta seems like most of this year...

Not Yet

A few of my guy friends have gotten engaged recently.  I find myself thing, no thanks, not yet.  I'm not at that place.  Maybe if I met the right guy, I'd be at that place?  I'm not looking for the right guy right now though.  I'm not looking for any guy. 

I feel like there are a lot of things I need to take care of before I find the right guy.  For example, more travels with girlfriends I know I'll have a blast with.

Weekend In Paris

I was in Paris over the weekend with two girlfriends.  Well, a girlfriend and her friend.  I'm never traveling with her friend again.  Paris was beautiful and cold.  It was my first time there.  Most of my past big trips have been with men I've dated, guy friends, male family members; and, they've taken charge of the planning, transportation, dining, et al.

From this trip, all three of us learned that we don't need a guy to go on a big trip.  We can get around on our own just fine.  I had much more fun traveling with this girlfriend than any guy I've dated.

Asking Myself Some Questions

Instead of thinking about men, dating, and relationships, I've been putting my energy into asking myself some questions.

1. If I didn't have to work for money and could do anything I want, what would it be and why?  
2. If I could live anywhere in the world, where would I live and why?  
3. If I could visit anywhere in the world, where would I go an why?

I think these are good soul searching questions for anyone who feels a little bored, confused, or just blah.

I'm sprucing up my apartment while I work on these questions.  I also bought new luggage so I have one less excuse as to why I'm not traveling the world.  I've noticed many people make excuses to themselves.  I'm one of them and I'm working to change that.  When I tell myself some kind of excuse, I've been asking myself, what am I avoiding or why is that my current thinking?  For example, I can't travel the world because I don't have an international sized carry on.  Now that I've bought one, I find myself saying, I can't go anywhere because it's hard to line up schedules with friends.  Well, why can't I go alone?  Of course, I can.

On A Break

I've been on a break from men and dating.  I still check my various apps and sites about once a week, but my heart's not in it.  I think there's a lot I want to see and do before I meet someone.

I was talking to a girlfriend, she one of those girls who is almost never single.  She's also on a break from men and dating.  She's putting all her energy into finishing school and working a lot to get a new car.  Another girlfriend of mine has been divorced for about a year, she's on a break from men too.  She's focusing on getting a group of us together every month for a girl's trip.  Let's go!

The Who Didn't Matter

I haven't heard from that guy that I went out with a couple weeks ago and that's fine.  From the date, I got the sense that he was too fresh off his divorce, which was finalized not too long ago. 

Also, his followup texts rubbed me the wrong way.  Instead of suggesting we go out to dinner again, a movie, a hike, et al, he kept suggesting activities that would require a plane.  That seemed odd to me.  We just met and he was talking about trips to Europe and Asia with the closest destination being Mexico.  Sorta made me think he was just trying to get laid if he was skipping very ahead to overnight out of the country activities.  It also made me think he was just dying to get into another relationship and the who didn't matter.

Begging Mutual Friends

It's 2017 and I'm not supposed to be talking about the ex guy.  I will for a minute because I'd like to share what he's doing wrong.  He's been asking mutual friends to talk to me on his behalf.  That seems incredibly immature.  He knows what went wrong between us.  Instead of trying to fix the things that needed to be fixed (not that I think those things can be fixed), he's begging mutual friends to get involved.  When mutual friends bring up his name, I change the topic.

Like one of my resolutions for 2017, I'm not taking any guy seriously unless he gives me a reason to take him seriously.  And, with this guy, I do not take him seriously.  I am annoyed that he's trying to involve mutual friends.  I would just like for him to leave me alone.

More Of A Friend?

That Saturday night date was good.  We had a lot in common.  We had a lot to talk about.  He was sociable and aware of social cues.  Unfortunately, I don't know if there's a spark.  I think I see him as more of a friend?  If he asks me out again, I'll go.

He's been texting me, but hasn't asked me on another date.  I don't consider a date an actual date unless there is a time, place, and day.  He's been throwing out ideas of things for us to do.  I've agreed to the ideas, but there aren't proposed times or days, which makes me think he might not be that sincere or interested. 

Let's see if a second date actually gets scheduled.  If it does, fine.  If it doesn't, fine.

Feeling Pretty Good

I have a date tonight and I'm actually feeling pretty good about it.  He hasn't sent me one pointless text!  That's so great!!  His texts were very direct and he asked me out in his second text.  The rest of the texts were date logistics like time, place, day.  I like it when guys are to the point.  None of this "How was your weekend," "Hi," "What was your last vacation," et al texts.

No Longer Much Of A Crush

My new crush is no longer much of a crush.  We've been texting a little here and there.  I'd say he's not interested enough, I'm not interested enough, or both.  If either of us were that interested, we'd be finding a way to be in the same zip code, not exchanging pointless texts.  There's no point in saying "Hi" from time to time.  Even though we met in person and not online, I really hate "Hi" texts. 

He's getting the irrelevant treatment (part of my dating and relationship resolutions).  I have NO plans of replying to his next text (if he even sends one) unless it's a "Hey, I'm going to be in town, let's have dinner" type of message.