Friday, January 29, 2010

Is There Something In The Air?

The Brain has been asking me out regularly...this is expected.

Felix has been contacting me a lot...this is not expected.

Is there something in the air?

I will continue to date both of them, but we all know there will be a time when I have to choose.  I am not looking forward to that day.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


I am not off the market yet, but pretty close.  How did Felix know to call me before it is really too late?  He called me earlier this week to ask me to dinner for the upcoming weekend.  I said yes; not because he is doing better than The Brain, but because he is still calling me years (or months that feel like years) later.

I think guys get this weird feeling when they know they are about to take it up the %ss.  I want to know what kind of magical powers Felix thinks he has.  Does he really think he will get the girl because he seems THAT interested?

Yes, I have seen The Brain since my last posting.  He is doing really well.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Not That One

So, I spoke about a blast from the past (thinking Odie).  Well, that may still happen, but I was contacted by Arthur.  NOOOOOOOOO.  I will not respond.  I don't like him even in a "friend" way.  What did he do wrong again?  He is bitter and does not fully understand how to be a friend vs guy pretending to be a friend to get a date with me.

I have seen The Brain a lot since my last post.  Maybe too much?  He wants to see me everyday.  I am not there yet, will I get there?  Unsure.  He is pretty cool though, so we'll see.

Felix is MIA and will be in for a rude awakening when he finally decides to reach out to me.  By then, I will probably be off the market.  Hah, sucks to be him.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Blast From The Past

Will there be a blast from the past?  Odie has been asking about me.

I bet Felix is next.

Meanwhile, The Brain has been calling, texting, emailing, and inviting me out.

Felix and Odie...are you doing your best?

Sunday, January 10, 2010

When On A Date

I am not sure about The Brain.  He is fun, but maybe he is more fun as a friend?  We went on the date and it went well for the first half.  Then he got serious.  I am not a psychiatrist, so why tell me about baggage, issues, etc?  No, the list below is not all him, but he did touch upon a few.

Issues to Avoid:
  • Ex Anything (wife, girlfriend, fiance, dog, house...)
  • Childhood hardships involving siblings, parents, school, friends, society, neighbors, yadda yadda
  • Other girls
  • Hair loss
  • Stories that take a long time to tell, have no point, are boring, and have no end
  • Perceived racism (all of you were pushing me to date an Asian guy and all of them have talked about this)
  • An extreme amount of ethnic pride (see if a white guy did this, we would show him to the next klanmember meeting, but this is okay for Asian guys)?
  • Money (how much things cost, how one does/doesn't have it, and how expensive things are)
  • Inability to fix things (sinks, cars, washers, windows...)
  • Disinterest in cars, yachts, planes, robots, and other types of machinery
  • Anything else that would make one look like a p#ssy
  • How one has no "game"
  • Major regrets
It looks like SF guys just don't know how to date.

I think I might be depressed.  Dating can be fun, but it hasn't been...  I need to find new guys, where am I supposed to find them?

Thursday, January 7, 2010


I am scared.  I have an official first date with The Brain over the weekend.  I am not scared that I am going on a date.  I am scared because I can say with an 85% confidence interval that he wants to marry me.  No, a ring will not be thrown into a glass of champagne over the weekend; not this weekend...

So what am I afraid of?  Everything.  Yes, I bitch and moan about not being able to find decent guys in SF, but now that a decent guy has found me, I turn into a high school girl.  I am so used to dating guys with no potential that when one with potential shows up, I freak out.

This poor guy has it worse off.  He's already nervous around me in non-date settings and I would bet that it is only multiplying as the days go by.

Is he "the one" I have been waiting for?  Is there something missing?  Where is that checklist?  He has the brains, sense of humor, wit, money, education, manners...

What is scarier:
  1. Discovering he is "the one" OR
  2. Discovering he is not "the one"
 Is this something I really want to discover right now?  I want to procrastinate...

Sunday, January 3, 2010

The Brain Pulls Way Ahead

The Brain is really winning me over.  Sorry Felix, looks like you really are on your way out...

I have seen The Brain a couple of more times since my last post.  I am over the whole not sure if I would ever want to see him naked thing.  I think he's been lifting cause his guns are huge...superb!  He's suave, too suave?  Is he a player?

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year

Okay, it is a new year and I am behind on posts.  We will take a look into what has happened in the last 2-3 weeks.


I heard Felix out and have seen him a couple of times (and I am right about the 48 hours thing).  He has stepped up, but I am not entirely certain that it's more than a fluke.  Furthermore, still not sure about him.  Just like anyone else, he has some very good qualities and very bad qualities.  I am going to have to give it more time to see how they stack up against each other. It would be disappointing if even more bad qualities appear without any good...  Disappointing because I would have wasted so much time and energy.

From what I have heard he is absolutely entirely interested in me, but I don't see it.  He's very nice, but distracted, stressed, unhappy, whatever, and it shows.  At times I find myself catching his mood from seeing him (not good).  He was doing so well when we just hung out as friends and on our first date.  I know he is going through some stuff right now, but is that a symptom or a cause?  And even if one is going through stuff, that wouldn't change them from being optimists at heart to pessimists right?  I think he might be a pessimist, but hid it incredibly well for the entire time I have known him.

Ivan brought this to my attention a while ago, Felix is a "bitter bachelor."  He's bitter because some girl from the past tore him apart and his personal life is not where he had hoped it would be at this age/point in time.  Well, a little advice for Felix, if he keeps this up, he will only become more bitter with time because he will not get that wife, 2.5 kids, and a picket fence.

The Brain

I have seen The Brain once or twice over the last couple of weeks.  More importantly though, he emails and texts me even when we have no plans.  He just wants to say hello and see how I am doing.  I know I am on his mind and that might be the most important thing when I consider guys.  I know he is 100% interested and actively trying to find ways to see me again.

From my limited interactions with The Brain, I think he is genuinely a cool guy.  He's funny and makes me smile, so he's got the right personality.  He knows how to joke and let go of ghosts/issues which makes him laid back and relaxed.  He doesn't want to depress me with things that are bothering him, quite honorable in my opinion.  However, personality alone is not enough.  Right now, I have no desire to see him naked.  Will I if I get to know him better?  I think it can happen, Felix is proof.

Okay, so I haven't know The Brain that long, so everything can change as I get to know more of him.  I know.

Felix vs The Brain

I think The Brain would make a much better boyfriend/husband than Felix.  I believe The Brain is capable of making me happier than Felix because our personalities work better together.  And, Felix has major demons he needs to banish if I am to continue considering him as a serious candidate. 

I want to see if Felix can outshine The Brain even though he is miles behind.  The Brain is just as busy as Felix, but makes a huge effort.  Felix, what the hell are you doing?????  Way to screw it up man, to go from first choice to last choice (if a choice at all).  And, to be completely oblivious to this...that takes a lot of skill.

It would be great if I could just combine these two.