Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day is around the corner.  Is this why The Brain AND Felix are contacting me?  Felix???  Yes.  I think Cupid must have shot him in the ass.

I have seen The Brain a lot...maybe too much.  I need to be MIA.

I have not seen Felix, but I have spoken to him more in the past two weeks than I have in a year.

Is There Something In The Air?

The Brain has been asking me out regularly...this is expected.

Felix has been contacting me a lot...this is not expected.

Is there something in the air?

I will continue to date both of them, but we all know there will be a time when I have to choose.  I am not looking forward to that day.

How?

I am not off the market yet, but pretty close.  How did Felix know to call me before it is really too late?  He called me earlier this week to ask me to dinner for the upcoming weekend.  I said yes; not because he is doing better than The Brain, but because he is still calling me years (or months that feel like years) later. 

I think guys get this weird feeling when they know they are about to take it up the %ss.  I want to know what kind of magical powers Felix thinks he has.  Does he really think he will get the girl because he seems THAT interested?

Yes, I have seen The Brain since my last posting.  He is doing really well.

Not That One

So, I spoke about a blast from the past (thinking Odie).  Well, that may still happen, but I was contacted by Arthur.  NOOOOOOOOO.  I will not respond.  I don't like him even in a "friend" way.  What did he do wrong again?  He is bitter and does not fully understand how to be a friend vs guy pretending to be a friend to get a date with me.

I have seen The Brain a lot since my last post.  Maybe too much?  He wants to see me everyday.  I am not there yet, will I get there?  Unsure.  He is pretty cool though, so we'll see.

Felix is MIA and will be in for a rude awakening when he finally decides to reach out to me.  By then, I will probably be off the market.  Hah, sucks to be him.

Blast From The Past

Will there be a blast from the past?  Odie has been asking about me.

I bet Felix is next.

Meanwhile, The Brain has been calling, texting, emailing, and inviting me out.

Felix and Odie...are you doing your best?

When On A Date

I am not sure about The Brain.  He is fun, but maybe he is more fun as a friend?  We went on the date and it went well for the first half.  Then he got serious.  I am not a psychiatrist, so why tell me about baggage, issues, etc?  No, the list below is not all him, but he did touch upon a few.

Issues to Avoid:

• Ex Anything (wife, girlfriend, fiance, dog, house...)
• Childhood hardships involving siblings, parents, school, friends, society, neighbors, yadda yadda
• Other girls
  
• Hair loss
• Stories that take a long time to tell, have no point, are boring, and have no end
• Perceived racism (all of you were pushing me to date an Asian guy and all of them have talked about this)
• An extreme amount of ethnic pride (see if a white guy did this, we would show him to the next klanmember meeting, but this is okay for Asian guys)?
• Money (how much things cost, how one does/doesn't have it, and how expensive things are)
• Inability to fix things (sinks, cars, washers, windows...)
  
• Disinterest in cars, yachts, planes, robots, and other types of machinery
• Anything else that would make one look like a p#ssy
• How one has no "game"
• Major regrets
  

It looks like SF guys just don't know how to date.

I think I might be depressed.  Dating can be fun, but it hasn't been...  I need to find new guys, where am I supposed to find them?

Scared

I am scared.  I have an official first date with The Brain over the weekend.  I am not scared that I am going on a date.  I am scared because I can say with an 85% confidence interval that he wants to marry me.  No, a ring will not be thrown into a glass of champagne over the weekend; not this weekend...

So what am I afraid of?  Everything.  Yes, I bitch and moan about not being able to find decent guys in SF, but now that a decent guy has found me, I turn into a high school girl.  I am so used to dating guys with no potential that when one with potential shows up, I freak out.

This poor guy has it worse off.  He's already nervous around me in non-date settings and I would bet that it is only multiplying as the days go by.

Is he "the one" I have been waiting for?  Is there something missing?  Where is that checklist?  He has the brains, sense of humor, wit, money, education, manners...

What is scarier:

1. Discovering he is "the one" OR
   
2. Discovering he is not "the one"

 Is this something I really want to discover right now?  I want to procrastinate...