Thursday, September 10, 2015

Still Ruminating

Still ruminating.  Sh*t, this New Leaf Guy thing.

A part of me feels like I've already wasted way too much of my life and energy on him.  Another part of me knows that I really liked him.  And I was angry, very angry because it didn't seem like he was interested enough.  I thought he was starting to treat me like garbage.  I felt like he was screwing with me (and perhaps he was to try to get a reaction, as revenge, whatever other possibilities).  Male friends have told me that they do things to get a reaction in order to see if a woman cares.  I don't think anyone should try to make someone else want to kill.

I don't know why, but I don't get the sense he is screwing with me now.

Do I want to get sucked into this again?  No.  Does part of me still like him?  Very likely.  Am I still angry about things that happened months ago?  No, a lot of time has passed; I know what he did, but I don't feel the fury anymore.

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  1. If you were my girlfriend I'd tell you not to even consider a guy who you felt treated you like garbage. Though for the record, everything you've described about New Leaf doesn't sound like "garbage", just a little socially inept - he wasn't abusive or emotionally manipulative.

    Since you're you and based on what I've read over the last year or so, I'd say go back to him. You probably aren't going to find anyone better.

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    1. Hi Anon, I'd probably have to agree with you, not necessarily "garbage." From your comment, I'm going to assume you don't like me much since you don't think I can find anyone better; so, why do you continue reading?

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  2. I would say no, he's not a good guy. He's the guy who stood you up and never follows through with his promises. If he's not a good person, I would not waste my time investing in him...

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    1. Thanks Anon. Work has been so busy that thinking about this New Guy thing isn't even on the top of my to do list right now, LOL

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  3. I agree with the Anonymous #1 in that 'garbage' might be extreme, but I also don't think you should keep seeing a guy just because there's a spark and some things in common. Ultimately it's how a person makes you feel and treats you - when it comes to a guy's actions, what are negotiables and non-negotiables?

    For instance, I personally don't care about fancy dinners and gifts, but it's imperative that a guy makes me feel like I can rely on him emotionally and physically (as in physical presence).

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    1. Hi Sabrina, you are right, "garbage" is probably a bit extreme. When he is on, he's on. When he's not on, it's not good. I do like it when people follow through on what they've committed to...

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  4. He stood you up! Nuff said. He's manipulating you.

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    1. I don't know if he's slick enough to do it? LOL

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