Hiding

I've gone into hiding...sort of.  And of course, the more I do not want to be found, the more people want to find me.

Stupid?
Arthur doesn't get it.  He has been calling me all week and does NOT get it.  If I don't pick up or return calls, that probably means something.  Okay the first couple of times, it doesn't mean anything, but if it happens for 3-4 weeks straight, it means something.  Does he think I am "playing hard to get?"  In his case, I will never be "gotten."  And you know what?  The more he calls me, the more I dislike him.  In the beginning, I wanted to be friends with this guy because he is funny, nice, and intelligent.  Now?  I don't think so.  He has gone from having good attributes to being annoying.  I don't think he understands that being friends with me does not mean I want to hear from him ALL the time and see him every weekend.  I think he got the word "friend" confused with "boyfriend."

Why is it that I always find the guys with stalker tendencies?  Or is it, they find me?  Why can't guys just be happy being friends with me?  What part of "not interested" is confusing???

Dying!!
I feel like a part of me dies when I have to explain myself to people I don't want to explain myself to.  Why should I?  Is the person asking to hear every detail of my life my mother?  For example, conversation with Arthur:
A: What are you doing this weekend?
AG: I have plans.
A: Oh, big date?
AG: (at this point I know the conversation will not end until I tell him what I am doing this weekend...so, I could say big date and get even more questions or just tell the truth - or something close to the truth).  Going to dinner with the girls on Friday and up to Napa on Saturday (I can feel a part of me dying)

Not only is a part of my dying, but I am becoming more hostile.  I can feel it.  It makes sense, "fight or flight."  Since "flight" didn't work, my mind is saying "fight." Even if I am lying, I become more hostile.  It's the act of having to share this information that I find insufferable. 

Odie's Back?
I had an Odie encounter this week.  Oh yes, you remember Odie?  It seems like he is still interested...maybe not much, but it is still there.  Sh*t or get off the pot...or not, I don't think I care.  He waited too long.  It went from me being interested to annoyed to very apathetic.  There is no hate here, just apathy.  There would have to be an enormous grand gesture from him to get me slightly interested.

Dewey
I heard from Dewey this week.  Or maybe it was last week?  Whatever, obviously nothing worth remembering.

Advice for the guys:
Yes, girls typically like aggressive guys who pursue them.  However, sometimes she just isn't interested.  Ouch your ego hurts...get over it.  As I was saying, there is a difference.  I think you can figure it out...  Pursue a girl too hard who has actually said, "We are friends, nothing more" and you won't even get to be friends with her unless she likes to be irritated.  Sure, you could wait for her to change her mind which could happen, but your transparent attempts are not going to help your cause.  If she changes her mind, she will let you know.

Daytime Adventure

I went for a run this morning.  It seems as though things happen even when I am: 1) in broad daylight, 2) not at a bar, and 3) sober.

What happened?

• Construction/House Cleaner Guy - he was standing by a fence.  I did three laps around him.  He was one of those disgusting guys who wasn't shy about the fact that he was staring at me as I ran by.  Well, the third time I ran by, I got pissed.  I actually stopped, turn around, caught him looking at my ass and said, "Stop looking at me!!"  He was gone on my fourth lap.
• Married Guy - he was also doing laps, but in the opposite direction.  The second time we passed, he was removing his wedding ring.  Third time we passed, he was giving me the eye.

Pathetic.

Out of Sight

Out of sight, out of mind.  Just because someone is not on my mind, does not mean that someone else is on my mind.  Make sense?

I wonder how many people think like me.

I have been too busy to think about guys, going out, dating, etc.

Great

I didn't do anything that exciting this weekend.  However, I did see Oblivious Guy Friday during happy hour.  I don't think he saw me, but come on, what are the chances???  I passed by 1 bar all weekend and of course I recognized someone...someone I really do not ever want to see again.  I will say this again...SF is small.

I did not meet up with Arthur.  I don't think I should until I am 100% sure he has given up on thinking I will wake up one day and want to date him.  I don't think we have reached that point yet.  He is still trying to get together with me.

I think I now understand the term "busy."  I have so much to do right now and so much on my mind that if someone who had a chance asked me out, I don't think I could go for a couple of weeks.

Ivan has a very interesting theory on Felix.  Ivan was 100% accurate on Odie, so I think he is probably right on about Felix.  Felix is a "bitter bachelor."

No I Am Not Dead

No I am not dead, I have been on vacation.  Yes, the whole passive guy thing happens much more in San Francisco than any other city I have been too.  Yes, you have already heard me say this.

My friend E sent this to me from SF Appeal...yes, it has to do with passive SF guys and single SF ladies.  It's pretty funny.  Check it out.

Yes, I do believe I will be getting myself into trouble as soon as I can.  Arthur has been blowing up my inbox.  I am still not seeing it though.

Another Weekend

Another weekend has come and gone.

I went out to dinner with Arthur.  I keep trying to see him in a different light, but I don't think it is possible.  He is really nice, smart, well mannered, etc.  Unfortunately, there is 0 attraction (at least on my end).  Everything about that evening screamed "date."  He is really sweet; I wonder if there is anyone I can set him up with...

Felix is thisclose to me never answering his calls/emails/texts.  I will get really fed up and say "screw it;" I am not sure when...it's not something I can predict, you know?  I hope he isn't on an ego-high because he believes I am sitting by the phone waiting for him to call.  I know how players play and how nice guys behave, but I can't put my finger on what is going here.  He is not a player, but he's also not dating like a nice guy.  Felix tries to nudge the ball back into my court every time I lob it into his.  It's like he doesn't realize he is to make the next move?  Or maybe he does and doesn't know to go about it?  Why am I even trying to guess the reason?  All I have to say on this topic is, this chance I have extended can just as easily be rescinded.  I will not be here until the end of time waiting for him to make his move.

Dewey wants to hang out some time.

The Bragger wants to hang out.  He really doesn't know how to go about it.  Every I run into him (which is a lot), he mentions hanging out.

Guys, stop using the term "hang out" and learn how to say, "Let's go out.  How about dinner on (fill in the blank) night?"  This alone could explain why there is a huge population of early/mid/late 30s guys in San Francisco who have never been married (or close to it) in their lives.

Summer In SF

In terms of weather, it hasn't been a typical San Francisco summer.  I did see that temperatures are supposed to be up this coming weekend.  Well, I have already heard from Odie and Felix this week.  We'll see...